Well, the thing is, I’ve been thinking a lot about anal play lately—you know, the whole butt stuff thing. I mean, I’m not going to lie, it’s kinda terrifying. As a woman, I’m not sure I’m ready to go that big.
But, the more I research it, the more I’m like, “Oh wait, maybe this isn’t so scary after all.” I mean, I learn about lube and stretching and all that crazy good stuff, and I’m starting to really get into it.
So the other day, I decided to go ahead and take the plunge. I went out and actually bought a big ol’ dildo—you know, kinda like I was gonna show it off like some badass badge of honor. And let me tell you, it felt pretty awesome.
I was shaking so much, I almost couldn’t do it. A big part of me was like “Nooo! Don’t do it! You’re gonna be so sore,” and then the other part was like, “Just go ahead and try it, girl! You got this!”
Man, I took a deep breath, and before I knew it, I had got it all the way in. And you know what? It felt really good, as hard as it was to believe it. I mean, my body kind of tingled and the pleasure kinda built up as I just kept pushing forward. Holy cow, it was amazing.
The thing is, a lot of people seem to think that, if you’re going big for the first time, you’re gonna be so sore. Well, honestly, I felt totally fine afterwards. Maybe I was just lucky—or maybe I know how to prep my body for it, I don’t know. All I can say is, for my experience, it wasn’t bad AT ALL.
Beyond that, I want to tell you something else—I know this might sound weird, but it felt hella empowering. Ever since then, I’ve been a lot more confident in myself, that’s for sure. I mean, I can’t really explain it, but all I know is that I’ve got something new I can explore, and there’s just something really, really satisfying about that.
I’m actually kinda curious about the bigger sizes now. Like, not unreasonably big, of course, but it did get me thinking about it. I’m sure it’s a process, for sure. But hey, I’m ready to take it on.
And with that, I’m ready to go deeper. You know, I’m talking about going to the anal level. I’m talking about a world of toys and pleasure—it’s out there, and I’m game to play. Now, I’m not scared of something that’s really big anymore, vibrators and I’ve totally overcome my fear. Now that I’m more daring, sex toys I’m definitely ready to try.