It was a surreal moment for me. I had a million things running through my mind as I was standing there. Was this something he had done before? Was this how he secretly satisfied his needs? Was he the type of person who even needed to use a sex doll? I had so many questions and yet no answers.
He eventually acknowledged my presence and when he looked at me, there was no shame in his eyes based on what he was doing. I couldn’t even reflect on his expression and say it was “disgusting” or “perverted”. I was confused and found it difficult to grasp what I was currently witnessing.
I couldn’t bring myself to ask why he was doing this. Even if I had decided to ask, I was afraid of the answer. It was like I was an intruder to a special moment he had with himself. I knew I shouldn’t have been there, but I didn’t want to leave.
My husband eventually finished and started to get dressed. He didn’t look embarrassed and acted like nothing had happened. As I silently observed, I could see his eyes showing mixed emotions, mostly pleasure and sex toys satisfaction from what he had just done.
My husband was not the type of person that I would have expected to do something like this. He was a conservative, upstanding man who was usually very private regarding his sexual desires.
I didn’t know how to react or what to say. I wanted to understand why he did it, but I didn’t know if I even wanted to know. But my curiosity was getting the best of me and I couldn’t help but ask what was happening.
He looked at me and said, “It’s something that I’ve wanted to try for a while now and I thought this was a good time to test it out.” He was so open and honest about his feelings that even I was impressed.
He went on to explain that he wanted to be able to explore his own desires and fantasies without feeling restrained or ashamed. He wanted to be able to experience different sex acts without worrying about consequences.
Seeing him do something like this, confident and with no fear or shame, was a major turn on for me. I had a newfound respect and admiration for him and his willingness to be true to himself.
I watched my husband fuck a sex doll, but I learned a lot more than that. I learned that everyone has their own fantasies and desires, but it’s ok to express them in a responsible, vibrators safe manner. I also learned that in order to reach true satisfaction, you have to be willing to accept and explore yourself.